my mom caught me masturbating and now thinks im a harlot.
a few months ago, i had a habit of getting into abusive relationships with men who are clearly ill-intentioned because i wanted to control WHO abused me. i invited a man who clearly has bad intentions to meet me near my school but near the end i backed out and it was over. he was 36 and im 16. my friends told my guidance counselor everything and dropped me cuz i was spiraling and they hated it, which i understand. the counselor thought of me as a harlot kinda, and told my mom everything, nd now she hates me.
i have a bruise on my rm and now she thinks im regularly getting fucked by someone and thats why i have a kinky bruise.
i am tired. i know i havent really shown it, but i dont just sleep around. reltionships are a form of self harm to me cuz no one is worth trusting. i am tired.