i’ve identified as ace for YEARS and i’m a lesbian as well. i’ve had sexual attraction to one fictional video game woman in my life but looking back those feelings make me very uncomfortable i guess?
my opinion towards sex has fluctuated a lot but i’ve always thought i was sex indifferent-averse irl. i find myself to be a lot more indifferent/averse now days with everything else i just don’t find myself wanting to read anything smutty or have any fantasies, i feel pretty content without it in my life.
ive always had a complicated relationship with sex unfortunately so to some childhood trauma, internalized misogyny, comphet, being influenced by the cisheteronormativity of the church, etc etc. maybe it started as a choice to not want to engage in any smut but i feel like i can breathe again now that im letting myself live without it. it feels nice honestly.
anyways, thinking back to that one character ive felt uncomfortable with it. ive never experienced sexual attraction to real people and for my entire life ive never planned to have sex irl so looking back it just feels a little. i’ve just gradually become not interested in fantasies or anything anymore and so thinking back to a time when i was just feels disconnected from myself. i know this can be totally normal for aces but i would like to her some stories from other people who get this :))