okay so i don't usually post but here i wanna share my experience so people can maybe relate/give me solution on how to cope. I've only fell in love with two people in my life ( note that i'm only 18 years old ) witch both of those relationship shared a similar pattern, the first one i actually never dated but we were very close friend to the point that many people though that we were dating and i started being obsess with him like everytime he wasn,t there i would feel empty and had no interest in other people in comparaison when i was with him felt euphoric but everytime i would perceive something different in his tone or for exemple a late response i would feel physically sick and overthink everything and also everytime he would hang out with other people i couldn't concentrate in everything else like i would cry and feel so physically sick that it would be impossible to ignore. and it is the same with thing with the second person who here i've actually dated i though that i've changed because in the beginning i was somehow normal and you could even say avoidant in some way but then everytime we fight i would feel so sick like i couldn't eat anything or even go to school it was like the whole pattern all over again. another problem is that when i'm not in this state of obsession i start missing this feeling, i start missing the high emotion that i felt with it bcause without it i feel like i don't feel as much idk how to explain. does anyone has a similar experience and advice ?