M25
I've felt like something was off about me for as long as I can remember. I don't really know who I am and become a different person depending on who I'm with. My emotions are all over the place I constantly overthink everything, and I never feel truly calm. The constant feeling of Anxiety in my Chest feels like it could burst open with the next bad thing that happens.
I have no friends and even though i want to have them i feel so different to everybody around me and am exhaused from interacting with people
I cant keep a Job, just the thought of working feels unbearable. How can i have the desire to work when i barely have the desire for life?
I keep telling myself i'm Lazy, a fuckup.
I want to WANT to work, to live to CHANGE but i just cant
For the longest time now i keep having this thought in my head that im just one big tragedy away from ending it.
I don't want to give you empty advice or words of encouragement, i just want to say that you're not a fuckup, you're just a person thats been through a lot up there and need to heal somehow. You're not alone in this feelings, i understand very well what you said. Different lives, different moments, but shared feelings of dispair. Go through the day somehow, and some better days will come up where you can do something else. My wishes with you