i’m currently in university and i’m really struggling with deadlines, this wasn’t really a problem before university so i’m not sure why things have changed so drastically. i still try to keep my things ahead of schedule by setting internal deadlines for myself to finish my work, but i just ended up not sticking to them because they aren’t “real” anyways. in a way that’s like “what’s holding me accountable?” “me?” and then a third voice just responds by saying “but i can just not do that because i have free will” despite so i still finish my work on time but i just ended up doing everything last minute because that’s the point when i know there would be real consequences. is it because im undisciplined so i fail to hold myself accountable? does anyone have any tips of trying to be ahead of things and not crash and burn last minute?
This sounds like the task initiation problem typical for ADHD. Because the task doesn’t seem stimulating or new or interesting or challenging, your brain doesn’t let you start it in a similar way that it doesn’t let you touch a hot stove. Have you tried body doubling?