That sounds like a powerful moment of clarity. Being able to see how pain shaped your actions, without turning away from it, is meaningful. I am glad you finally feel like you can breathe.
i did this sitting process today and i feel better its really weird. its something i have dealt with for and it had destroyed me and a lot of relationships. It made me realize that i was dwelling in my pain and pushing my loved ones away. I feel like i can take a breath for the first time.
That sounds like a powerful moment of clarity. Being able to see how pain shaped your actions, without turning away from it, is meaningful. I am glad you finally feel like you can breathe.
Tell us about your sitting process.
i never done this i always hear about it but never had it explained until now.
1 . let the emotion sit with out judgement. i was brutally assaulted and its not my fault. and due to that i contracted something that ill deal with my entire life.
get curios and don’t label the encounter good or bad. this experience happened and though it should never happen. i can grow in someway from it.
how would i support a loved one. i would let them talk about it and understand that i cant fathom how they feel but i will be there to sit with them in there pain and just be there for them when they are ready. i may look for resources so they know that others have made it through this and i will be there every step of the way.
4 where do my feeling reside. it starts in my chest i feel in my lungs and heart. it then radiates to my head my teeth clench i start to grind them. my head starts to pound and then i try to get up and distract myself anything i can do to not dwell i start to sweat and stare off into space
5 why am i feeling it. because i feel ashamed and less of myself. i don’t feel like i have autonomy over my body. my choice was taken from me and if i cant accept it how could they accept it. i feel subhuman
6 stay mindfull and present. i am safe and this doesnt define me.
7 be aware of how i’m speaking to myself. i can’t think that i am the problem. and what could i have done better in the situation. its not your fault you are still a man and i shouldn’t look down like i’m a broken toy she still will love me and not look at me with pity and her opinion wont change or be sickened by me
8 acknowledge that its ok to feel sad and hurt and i don’t need to fear being vulnerable with people. they love me for me and wont look at me any different
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