M22, suffered from anorexia from 16.5 to 18.5 which fucked up the tail end of my development. Have fought so hard to come back from my illness but this penis thing is making me so depressed and frankly suicidal. I have lost all motivation in life as when I was 16.5 I genuinely thought I was “changing my body for the better” and getting healthy because I was overweight. Anyway I really fucked up and now I can’t get a girl and my life is fucked forever. Not really asking for advice because I think I’m going to commit suicide pretty soon because I can’t take this regret anymore and my life anymore but yeah, that’s it.
Hey so, unrelated but like, unless you were a VERY late bloomer, i think penis development is like >95% done by age 16 (from the charts online), so I dont think you lost much at all. do you have your labs to show your pubertal progress at around the anorexia time?