Day 5 of sobriety. I only quit because I got CHS. I felt like I was dying and had to go through it practically alone, too embarrassed / ashamed to let anyone know what was happening.
As my CHS symptoms come and go in waves, in between bouts I am left alone with my feelings. And I am reminded what drove me to start this habit 11 years ago.
I suffer with anxiety and depression, PTSD and I am autistic. And that’s only the mental illnesses. Life has been and can be very difficult but I have been in therapy for years and have seen improvements. However a general dissatisfaction with life resulted in my normal becoming being high all day every day. That was until CHS showed up.
I know it has to be different now but I don’t have a support network to talk to about this and I feel like the darkness is seeping in. The emotional pain is becoming debilitating and the grief is overwhelming.
I feel very alone in all of this. I am worried that when my CHS symptoms completely go I will turn back to THC. I am already having thoughts of consuming it again.
I guess what I am looking for is some reassurance that it does get better and I can do this. And if you have any advice to give me the best chance at making this work? Even if you don’t, thank you for taking the time to read this
It does get better and u can do it, it’s just time. The worst part is just sitting with your emotions I stead of suppressing them. Maybe journal or record a bit about the good and bad of every day without judging yourself or making meaning of emotions, especially now with CHS symptoms and u can go back and look when cravings come. I’m on day 6 but it’s not my first time quitting, what you’re describing is really normal, you’re definitely not alone in this.
I’m with you. I am quitting because CHS symptoms too. It’s horrible but I know it will go away. I tried to quit once before and it took 10 days to feel better. Count the days and be proud of the ones you have completed. It does get better. I am on day 3 of sober round 2