[Disclaimer: This is my one sided love story and the last way to find my crush. It might be incomplete but it will be a beautiful story. I wish you guys like it, Thankyou]
First of all, I want to say hello to all the readers of this story. I’m Nayan (a.k.a. NIXICITY7). I am a 20-year-old college student, and I want to share my story of a one-sided attraction with all of you, hoping I might reach her through this post.
As human beings, we possess a delicate thing called the heart. Our hearts are deeply sensitive, carrying a wealth of emotion. Sometimes, our feelings can overflow and override our minds, simply because the mind and heart are so closely connected.
In my case, you could call it an attraction—specifically, an attraction to a 24-year-old Japanese student of Nepalese origin named Suru. I prefer to call her "Mero Maya" (My Love). I first saw her on Instagram back in 2020. Yes, I have been following her for six years now. After seeing her posts, I felt a deep, past-life connection with her. I don't know why I feel such strong love for her, but six years have passed, and my attraction to her still continues.
Over the years, I sent her numerous messages, but I never received a single reply. Still, I told myself, "Do something crazy." In 2025, Suru became an Instagram influencer, so I decided to create a fan page dedicated to her. Just three days later, she actually followed the page back! I shared this story with her, and she read it and reacted with a ❤️. The day she followed my fan page back was the best day of my life.
However, after some time, she unfollowed the page because of my persistent messages. That moment broke me from the inside; my last ray of hope felt gone. But even then, I told myself, "Never give up."
Doubts still cross my mind. What if she already has a boyfriend? What if she gets married before I can find her? She is 24 now, and many women marry around the age of 26 or 27. But whenever those thoughts arise, my heart reminds me: "Those who never give up will never fail." Even if I never get the chance to meet her, the love I hold for her will always remain the same. I pray to God to bless her.
My friends who know about this attraction constantly tell me, "You are just wasting your time." I simply reply, "I am mad for her." In truth, they aren't wrong—being this devoted to someone who doesn't even know you exist can certainly seem like madness. Suru is my obsession; she is the dictator of my heart.
But I have set a firm goal for myself: to become successful in life, fly all the way to Japan, and find her.
I have to stop writing here, or my tears will start to flow.
Thank you, and I hope you resonated with my story.