My friends describes being on HRT like being a car finally being given the right gas. It is not uncommon for HRT to calm the anxiety that characterizes gender dysphoria. It’s like your brain is finally happy it’s getting the right hormone. How you express your gender is going to be up to you. Like, I’m. It sure how long you’ve been on HRT but given enough time, you’re probably going to go through some physical changes. Those changes can influence what you think looks good for you. As for the flipping part, can’t say for sure. My guess would be without HRT, you’re compensating for trying to feel happy while your brain is in distress. Now that your brain is in less distress, you’re defaulting to what is comfortable or “normal” for you.
Yes, it really does feel like taking the right fuel or whatever versus having the wrong fuel. I think I’ll probably be on estrogen and just present however I feel. But still figuring it out.