Okay, quick context. I am 19 and have been single for 2 and a half years now. I struggled quite hard for the first 2 years of that period to stay porn-free with constant cycles of addiction and healing every few months. But for the last 7 months, I have honestly been doing quite great. My New Year's resolution was to stop the porn, and I did just that. After the 1st month, it gets much easier. I get a couple of wet dreams every month, but that's normal, given I am not ejaculating. The problem has been that for the last month, I've, for some reason, become super lustful, without exposing myself to anything like porn or social media. I would just daydream all of a sudden of wanting to have sex, and it's ruining my motivation to do anything to the point where I just lay in bed. The good thing is that I think I am holding the line for getting on porn again. I do want to have a girlfriend and have been trying to be more social for the last few months, but it's hard finding one. I am working fully remotely, so that doesn't help. So a few days ago, I had this idea of mine to hire a sex worker and maybe do that like once a month. I am very well off financially, so the money is not the problem here. I am just wondering if that's the best thing I can do. Would that actually kill my lust? Would that help me be more confident around girls, or would that ruin my confidence? Would I regret doing that one day, when I have a family, that I had paid someone to have sex? You probably know what it's like at this age to go without sex for that long. Also, I was thinking it would be great for experience since with my last girlfriend we didn't have sex that many times.
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